Today's appointment confirmed that it was a chemical pregnancy. Basically, I lost the baby very early on, and back in the day, most women wouldn't have even known that they were pregnant and would think that they just had a late period. Unfortunately,the pregnancy tests are still coming back positive, so I had to do another beta hcg blood draw today. My doctor wants to follow me all the way until my levels are back at zero. She also suggested that we wait 2 full cycles before trying to get pregnant again. While I do agree that doctors know best, I am just planning on letting nature take its course. Despite having just gone through a chemical pregnancy, I feel that my body won't let me get pregnant again until it's ready to support a baby. So, we are going to continue to not prevent and hopefully get pregnant again by the beginning of the school year. I am fortunate to have Luke on board with all of this. There was a part of me that was worried that he'd really want to do what the doctor suggested, but he also doesn't want to stop trying for our next baby.
I'm back to charting my morning temperatures to try to track ovulation again, and feel like we are in a good place, emotionally and physically to start trying again. When I got my updated beta hcg levels back on Friday, I felt that it gave me some great closure to know that my levels were dropping, and that this was not a good pregnancy. While I can see how many women spiral down into darkness and despair after a miscarriage, I have made a vow to myself to continue to be upbeat and positive regarding the fact that we have to start over. This was completely out of our control, and I can't dwell on the loss or the idea that I could experience this again.
And on that note, let baby-making pt. 2 begin!
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